What my ceremonial mushroom journey was like is a good question, but you need to do something for me first to understand the answer. Put aside what you think you know. Spend a minute just remembering you view your life and the universe through your senses, which are limited. For example, you see through your eyes and yet they don’t even see infra-red light. You hear through your ears and yet they only hear a very limited sound range. A dogs nose is a better sense than yours will ever be.
Just have in the back of your mind that what you think you know is minuscule. Furthermore, if you try to understand what a ‘ceremonial mushroom journey’ is like based on experiences in your life (assuming you’ve not done it previously) you risk misunderstanding.
Spiritually speaking I needed it, I was always looking forward to seeing what the plant medicines would show me. Having previously experienced cacao and other plant medicines on several occasions I was now ready to explore further. I didn’t know what I wanted from it, I just knew I had to give myself over to it and I would be shown. Myself, I have only ever used plant medicines for spiritual purposes or meditation, not just getting high for high’s sake. Trying to describe the journey for the most part is a waste of time, I could never put in to words properly what I experienced, but will try.
It showed me things about myself I didn’t even realise. Realiser is about being in a realised state of mind, and I certainly realised so much that on that day. Spirituality means something different to everyone and profound events such as taking mushrooms are the same, they will be different for me and for you. To explain in depth my experience here doesn’t mean you will feel exactly the same, you will have your own journey. The mirror you look in to afterwards will have its own revelations.
“I saw the colour of my emotions”
I now realise how the setting was all important. My ceremonial mushroom journey had two experienced guides, 9 of us in total, all there together to journey, to reveal, to discover. It felt amazing before we’d even begun. Gratefully I am glad in hindsight I had a guided journey rather than did it on my own. There were times when they comforted me and placed there hands on me to relax me at just the right moments.
The ceremony began with Cacao and Blue Lotus as a warm drink and then about 20 minutes later the mushrooms (about 2 grams) which I ate. Then, time to lay back and wait. It felt like about 20 minutes later the effects hit me, my vision changed, I felt warmer, cocooned somehow. Safe. I was lying on the floor with a blanket over me, my head on a pillow. My eyes closed and began to let the visuals come. Soon I heard my own voice say “Let it go Ben” but likewise the voice wasn’t mine, it was the higher me.
I listened to the higher me and let the colours come. Now at this point time had lost meaning, I couldn’t say whether 5 minutes or two hours had past but what I saw I described as ‘seeing peace’. At the time I kept saying that I saw peace, that I remember clearly, and I stand by that. I saw a river of pale yet bright light and a ‘room’ of the same colours and have never felt so at peace in my life. In that moment it was like I knew that everything was going to be ok.
The door to change is yours to walk through.
We Are All One. Brothers & Sisters.
About half way through the journey I began to feel the colours of the room to my left change, to become darker, I didn’t like it. The sensation of being able to feel colours is again almost impossible to verbalise. Although I didn’t see or hear anything I somehow knew that my brother to my left was having a tough time in his journey, he was being challenged by the medicine. He has since told me he was resolving some ancestral pains.
I placed my left hand on his leg whilst we were still both lying down next to each other and I felt the colours in my left arm change. There is a clear memory of knowing that he was my brother, he was me, and that I had him. My journey went darker and I had a glimpse of when the trip could have gone to a really dark place, thankfully it didn’t. The sensation of ‘feeling colours’ is almost impossible for me to describe but it felt very real, more than any other sensation I have ever had.
Eventually I felt his journey begin to brighten and mine did too. Whether he knew it or not I shared something with him that changed me forever. It taught me what brotherhood, what all being one, really was. I thank him for letting me have this lesson and for my guides for being there too.
“Your own path is exactly that, your own interpretation of the teachings”
You may have read elsewhere that mushrooms are not a guaranteed blissful few hours and I agree. Above all they are teachers and as a result of my journey with them I am changed forever. I have a different feeling for the world, one that has both good and bad attached to it. Profoundly I see the world, the big and the small things, for the wonders they are even more so than before. I also see the injustice more, the pain and suffering more. If I tried I couldn’t help but feel it, I see those who suffer as a reflection of the worst in me, in all of us. It makes me driven to change it, to create a community based on unconditional love so that we may all one day live the lives we wish.
After my journey it took me at least 3/4 days to be ready to begin processing what had happened and what I had seen. I think I had some small residue in my system for 48 hours afterwards so that is something for watch our for! Watching the water glow as I showered the next day caught me off guard! But in a good way.
Be careful, do your research, be in a place in your mind where you ACCEPT that you will be taught things and be ready to go with that. Don’t try to control it, it will kick your arse. Have a guide.
“My Ceremonial Mushroom Journey Has Changed Me Forever”
Realiser was born from a dream to be in a realised state, a state of awaken. To be able to see the most obvious things having missed them for so many years. Subsequently I wanted to create something to serve as an example of how it could be. If only we might spend the time loving that we spend hating. Above all spending the time to be kind to others for no reason. You get the idea. I will travel around doing what I can and would love for you to join me. Follow my path here…