Where Did My Spirituality Come From?

Having thought back on it a few times, the question of where does my spirituality come from has always never really yielded an answer.  Not one that is straight forward anyway.  But if it was that easy to pin point I would have done it years a go.  Gone and done that thing and then bingo! Above all I can say one thing, it wasn’t one thing, it was a few.  There have been big life events that really kicked me along the path and likewise there has been lots of small ones. 

My mum having a brain haemorrhage was one such big life event.  Questioning injustice on a scale I had never felt or seen before made me angry at the world, and at myself, and well everything really. Why would this happen to her, she has done nothing wrong to anyone, etc.  Looking for that answer lead to on to look for all the answers.  I have written about this before here.

Firstly I wanted to know what I was doing working in my job as a police officer and why?  I had joined 10 years before for the money and security.  I wasn’t the same person now, money didn’t motivate me.  By being secure in a job I was unhappy with, I was basically securing my own unhappiness!  That had to change.  I joined to help people, which is what I told myself in the hope that I would eventually do some good, and I did do some good along the way.  

The conclusion of those 10 years was that I spent more time covering the arse of the ivory tower brigade than I did helping people.  Searching for answers lead to me believe I was working for an organisation controlled by the latest party in power, who in turn were corrupted, and that they were the toy of large private corporations.  If I wanted my ‘spirituality’ I had to leave.  I have written further about the police and spirituality here.

“I had security and unhappiness. I was secure in my unhappiness”

Keeping my mind open was what enabled me to realise that after 10 years I was in fact in was in the wrong place.  By ‘always learning, mind open’ I mean letting yourself know what you might be wrong.  To do this you need to put aside your ego, which isn’t always easy.  We all know many, many people who stay in the same routines, same jobs, even though they are unhappy.  I used to hear them moan daily about how rubbish it all was.  They used job security to hide their fear of the unknown.  I wanted out!  So I hadn’t found my spiritualism yet but above all I knew where it wasn’t.  Ask yourself questions, in this case where did my spirituality come from?

For some this is where it gets controversial.  Listen up, I have gone from one side of the ‘drugs war’ to the other.  I spent more time than I can recall busting people for using cannabis, mushrooms, etc.  Here I am now using them myself.  Again, questioning everything, was I wrong?  Alcohol and tobacco cause more issues for the population and cost society more money that the aforementioned mushrooms and cannabis ever has/will.  Yet they are consumed every, single, day.  Social acceptability is the only difference regardless of what the controlling governments may tell you.  So I  decided I would see for myself, consequently I made the right move.  Profound, life changing, blissful, mind altering, perception altering, loving. 

This is a key part of it all, finding others that think the way you do.  People who have questioned the way things are society tends to label as ‘hippies’ or ‘alternative’ and the likes.  Personally speaking if someone calls me a hippie that’s a compliment!  We are a societal species, we thrive best when with others, making sure those others are people who think like you is essential.  Finding them is the hardest part I have found, social media is helpful, going to events to best for me.  Actually speaking to people face to face about the things you have thought helps me grow.  You’d be amazed to hear that they have similar stories, similar experiences.  

Use whatever means necessary to find others who have had their own spiritual awakening or realisations, you will benefit from them.  In the same breath you cannot be afraid to limit your contact with those people in your life who hold you back, who belittle you when you speak about life outside of the rat race.  Cut them out if you have to.  If you have ever wondered “where does my spirituality come from?” comment in the box below.

“For the ones who know, and the ones who never dare to try – My brother, don’t be afraid, death is not the ending to life” – Sam Garrett

Realiser was born from a dream to be in a realised state, a state of awaken.  To be able to see the most obvious things having missed them for so many years.  Subsequently I wanted to create something to serve as an example of how it could be.  If only we might spend the time loving that we spend hating.  Above all spending the time to be kind to others for no reason.  You get the idea.  I will travel around doing what I can and would love for you to join me.  Follow my path here…